#168

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I lived in a group foster home from the time I was 11 until just before my 16th birthday. I did like it very much at the time and ther was a total of 6 kids ages 9 to 16, 4 girls including me and 2 boys. The house parents were extremely nice to all of us. The mother was a very sweet woman and the father was a doctor. I'm sure they spent much more on us than the compensation they received for our care. The only bad thing was that the father/doctor would routeenly give all of us physical examinations. It was embarrassing at first but they were done at least once a month and I just got accustom to them as did the other kids including the boys. As I got older I dreaded it more and was more humiliated each time. The other girls and boys seemed to feel the same way but none of us really had a choice. The typical examination required us to completely undress and lay naked on the exam table in a spare room. The house mother was never present but I never thought much about that. He would examine every inch of my body and after the first year or so I was subjected to vaginal and anal exams. These examinations sometime lasted as long as an hour and were always done indevidually. My feet would be in sturrups with my legs spread wide open and at first the embarrassment was unbearable. As I got older I was not only subjected to the pevic exams but he also examined my breasts which I sure he did to the other girls also. We all talked about it at times and even the boys admitted they were embarrassed by the exams. It was done usually once a month and each of us had different times during the month when we got our "check up". If we got sick or had a cold he would take us into the exam room and give us another complete examination. The only time I remember crying about it was the first time he made me put my feet in the sturrups. After that I would still tremble with humiliation but would just listen to him talking and hope it would be over soon. By the time I was 13 or 14 he began inserting a speculum in my vagina and anus. It was painful at times but he assured me it was nessesary since I was getting older and ovulating. He always told me what was being done and always made it sound important. The crazy thing is I did like him very much and aside from the monthly exams was treated very well by both him and his wife. We were all afforded privacy and we were like a family. We went to good schools and church each Sunday was a must. Just before my 16th birthday I was in a bad care accident when my house mother and I were coming home from the store. I had a fractured skull and spinal injuries and spent almost two years in and out of the hospital and rehabilatation clinics. By that time I was to old to return to the foster home. Both the house mother and father visited me often and both were very concerned about me. I eventually moved near my cousin in New Jersey but kept in touch with them for awhile. I'm in college now and am still friends with one of the girls I lived with those years. Last month she called to tell me that our old house father was in jail. Thats when we found out that he wasn't a doctor but owned a medical supply business. He was very rich and was arrested a few months ago for child molestation. Someone found out how he was examining the kids they fostered and turned him in. As much as I think about it I never once thought he was pedophile. My girfriend and I have dicussed it often lately and neither of us had any idea that he was a pedophile. She is a year older than me and was examined by him up until she was almost 18. Even though he examined us naked there never was a time we considered it sexual and I think we were dumb enough to trust him. We both agreed he not only looked like a doctor but he was always very professional about everything. I actually feel sorry for our old house mother and doubt if she knew what he was doing to us. She was so kind and gererous to all of us over the years. He was also and aside from the examinations never had any physical contact with any of us and was always respectful of our privacy. I even remember at times the two of them preaching to us about moral issues manners. As much we were humiliated by him none of us ever considered him doing it for sexual reasons. He had all of us truly believing he was a doctor and trusting him. It angers me now recalling all the embarrassing things he did to me and the others and I am glad someone finally caught him. I think he is almost 60 years old now so he will probably be in jail the rest of his life. I don't know how long he has been doing this or how many girls and boys he has done this to, but he finally got caught.

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