I can’t help myself. I know it’s wrong, but it all started when his younger brother just kissed me on the cheek one day and my heart just jumped and it was an instant feeling that came. That night I drank too much and kinda in and out. We ended up kissing, but my eyes were closed the whole time. He unzipped his pants and I went down on him and we cuddled. I don’t know if he thought I forgot because I was drunk, but since then it’s happened several times, but we’ve gone as far as having sex. At first we were shy and knew it was wrong, but it’s been over 4 years now of our affair and the thought of him makes my heart race. We have the most passionate sex now and we tell each other how much we love each other and he is so kind to me. I am really torn because I really know where my heart is. It would be easier if it was just sex, but it’s not.