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Please try not to judge me too much as this forum is supposed to be accepting and non-judgemental. I feel extremely unsure of where my life is headed right now. My life is a mess right now. I am a 42 year old heterosexual woman. I am divorced since April 2018. I have 14year old daughter. My ex husband business venture collapsed.We lost our home. The bank foreclosed on our house.All the while, he has done our finances and never really was open to my having access to them. I think it was a control issue at first and later he didn’t want me to know. My ex husband is unemployed since his company declared bankruptcy in December 2017.

For the past three months i am renting a house on a month to month lease. My landlord lives in the house next door. She is skinny really short like 5ft3 wrinkled face thin lips creepy green eyes grayhaired masculine 55year old woman. I am 5ft10 tall heterosexual curvy hourglass shaped attractive brunette. I have very large breasts and i do have a big butt. I don’t intend to dress in any particular ‘way’ for anyone. I just wear what I like. I don’t ‘ask’ for anything. I don’t ask to be groped. I wear clothes that fit me properly. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits satin coats and satin and silk blouses. I am always on high heels and full make up on. If you are curvy, tall and busty, many clothes tend to look sexier on you than on a thin person. So things that fit properly that are relatively conservative can be suddenly too revealing and sexy when you put it on. This happens to me a lot. I wear almost always my satin and silk blouses fully buttoned to the top combined with a satin skirt or satin pants. I don’t wear anything vulgar but because of my body type anything i wear looks tight on me. Being tall and curvy draws attention on its own. This can be both positive and negative. I tower over plenty of men and women. I was sexualised from a very early age, and shamed for the way my body looks – something I have no control over. I can’t help how wide my hips grow or how big my breasts get.

My mother used to shame me for the way my body looked. If I wanted to wear a skirt or dress, she always discouraged it, she always thought my skirt was ‘too short’ or ‘too tight’, or there was something wrong with my dress-sense. There’s always guys flirting or asking me for my number. When I go out in public guys start talking to me and subtly try to ask me out. I have trouble being mean so i cant get them to leave me alone. I end up getting stressed by it. The irony is that all this time I’ve been afraid of men, perceiving any touch as a sexual advance that I should fear – when really, it was a short, skinny old woman I should have feared.

About two months ago i arrived home home from work and my landlord was there on the driveway. I got out of my car and this woman my landlord walked up to me and said “Wow! Your breasts are sooo large! Can i touch them” AS she was already grabbing and squeezing them! I just said it looks like you are already touching them. In the moment, I found myself laughing it off. And this woman is really short, her head is exactly the level of my breasts. Since then this woman my landlord thinks she can just walk up and feel my boobs or grab my ass when ever she feels like it!! She routinely slaps or rubs my butt. She loves to squeeze or jiggle my breasts and tell me how soft and squishy they are. She thinks they are toys. Also she is always grabbing, slapping and rubbing my ass. .

Usually it happens on the driveway. This woman my landlord waits for me to come home from work on every work day. She never touches me in front of my daughter.She often hugs me around my waist and then proceeds to hump me (From behind usually but sometimes from the front)in a joking playful way. I usually just feel like a deer in headlights. I hate that i have grown accustomed to it.

But this woman my landlord REDUCED my rent by 50%. So I’m willing to sit/stand out the awkward groping and hugging and just think of something else while it’s happening. Should I feel ashamed of myself? I am a weak, spineless person. This friendly groper landlord says to me that because her face is at level with my breasts and I am rather large she finds touching, squeezing, rubbing, and patting them and resting her head on them comforting. She said that she finds great comfort doing this when she’s stressed. But it is all my fault. She thinks that my breasts are a readily-available source of comfort for her. She said that because i am much taller than her, the hugs make her feel very secure and cared for.

This creepy short skinny woman my landlord hasn’t pushed me into having sex so far. It’s just the obsessive groping me and touching me. If I just stand there, she would stay there for a long time just feeling my breasts and squishing them or whatever. Also she will just full on grab my butt. It is super annoying. I’m just standing there, and she’ll walk by me and take a swipe at my butt. This short skinny woman is always commenting that I am so tall, big and soft. She tells me often that she likes that I am always dressed up in satin and silk and that she likes touching my clothes. I feel deeply ashamed of myself. I don’t know what to do. I feel like such a bad person. .

About a month ago i arrived from work and my landlord was standing on the driveway with her friend(this short like 5 ft 2 skinny freckled face green eyes thin lips red haired masculine woman in her early 50s). They walked up to me and this ginger woman my landlord’s friend complimented my boobs. Then my landlord said to her friend “Touch her boobs if you want, she wont mind!” Then this short skinny ugly ginger woman reached with her both hands and gave my breasts what I can only describe as a jiggle-squish. She commented on how soft they feel. I was speechless. Since then this ginger woman started touching and squeezing my breasts and slapping and rubbing my ass , in a joking/playful way on every encounter. These two gropers women my landlord and her friend seem harmless to me because I am physically stronger than them i am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.They are both short like 5ft2/5ft3 tall skinny.I am always on high heels they are always in flat shoes.Standing next to me they look like midgets.Also these two weird old women don’t look threatening. They are both creepy and ugly but they are tiny,short and skinny women in their 50s. But they are taking advantage of me, and i am afraid that they will just go even further. I am 100% straight. I’ve never had any desire to do anything sexual with a female. In all honest just thinking about possibly kissing a female makes me cringe. .

But this woman my landlord reduced my rent by 50% and I am so grateful I let her do anything she want.That is why i decided to try tolerating groping, rubbing, humping and hugging by her. It is pretty gruesome. She gets away with groping me all the time, simply because i let her. I just automatically want to do everything possible to keep conflict down with her and I always sacrifice my dignity for it. This woman my landlord makes a lot of comments about how tall,big and soft i am.It is weird and creepy.She is obsessed with my height.She often compliments me on my outfit commenting that i am extremely fashionable, elegant, glamorous, and classy and that she likes touching my clothes.She often hugs me from behind placing her hands on my breasts.Also she always hugs me in full frontal hug pressing her face on my breasts.

I know other people my new neighbors probably laugh at me behind my back because of this situation with this woman groper landlord. One woman said to me that I make stupid faces while this woman groper is groping me and humping me. She also said that it is bizarre that standing next to the groper I look like a giant and I let her get by with it. I just laughed and replied to this woman that we (me and my landlord) just have a weird bond like that. Other people neighbors probably think that I am okay with it. Most of my new neighbors here think I’m stuck up overdressed snob because I tend to ignore them.Not because I don’t like them or think I’m better than them, but because I’m scared of them, or I think they don’t like me! To be completely honest, I’d rather them see me that way…stuck up. It makes me feel better when they think I’m stuck up. Alot of people ( females in general) pre-dislike me, unto they get to know me and find out that I’m a not stuck on myself at all.I’m the kind of person that only speaks if I have something to say and I keep my business to myself.I like satin and silk clothes and I wear them well.I have a more stylish sense of fashion. I never wear anything trashy, I keep myself well covered and strive for professionalism and class. When I am feeling stressed, blue, or overwhelmed, I will dress up a bit more than usual and put more time and effort into my hair and make up. I think it’s part of the ‘fake it til you make it’ mentality that I have adopted. If I look pretty, it helps me to feel a little better.And very often, to cheer myself up, I’ll wear red.Btw, that doesn’t mean I’m always down when I wear red, just that sometimes red is my way of subconsciously sending myself positive messages. It puts me in better spirits when I look fab. It helps me feel fab on less fab days.I always dress up when I’m feeling down.In fact I think the more down I feel the more I dress up, put make up and such.Partly because it’s the fake till you make mentality, partly because I have no patience for feeling sorry for myself.I definitely feel better and more competent/capable of getting through the day if I dress up a little extra on the days when I don’t feel good, but have something pretty important going on.I’ve been doing a lot of that lately.