My uncle sexually abused me when i was a 10 year old boy. Now i get aroused when i think about what he did to me.

My uncle lived far away but he came to visit our family 2-3 times a year and would stay for a few days. I looked up to him and he was a funny man. Our family home was small, so he used to stay in my bedroom with me.

At bedtime he used to undress completely in front of me and get aroused. At 10 years old I only had a small penis and it fascinated me how big and hairy his was. He would watch me undress and touch my naked body and perform oral sex on me. I was so naive, I was just concerned I would accidently pee in his mouth; I didn't realise at the time he was molesting me. It wasn't long before he talked me into performing oral sex on him and it eventually led to him having anal sex with me. He never wore a condom and i can recall tasting his semen and how warm his cumshot was. I never thought what he was doing was bad and this continued until I was 13 years old, when my parents found out what he was doing to me.

I've thought about these events often over the course of my lifetime and for many years I was ashamed at being groomed and abused, but recently I have found myself thinking about it alot more and masturbating at the same time. It actually arouses me when I think about him fucking my virgin asshole and sucking my little dick until it felt fizzy. I always feel guilty after I have cum though.