Okay so I really don't care if this gets any response I just wanna let it out. I want to kill myself I hate living. I have a great boyfriend but no friends I have a couple but not enough to even have a 10 person party on my birthday. And people I'm kind of friends with are always with their friends and having a good time. As I write this my boyfriend is currently at a party with his friends and his sisters friends. But I wasn't invited and it just makes me realize how unneeded and annoying I am as a person. If I could do one thing I'd leave and never come back and start over but I never could. I wish I could try my life over again.