All throughout my teenage years, I’ve been struggling with my sexuality. Who do I like? Girls? Boys? I don’t know. I’ve always been curious about dick though. And when I’d go to my mother’s house on the weekends I’d notice that my stepdad had fallen asleep on the couch, and this is normally where he’d end up sleeping.

A couple of times, I’ve gotten bold enough to come up to him in his sleep and rub my hands on his firm body. He is very attractive and has a fit body. One time I reached down into his sweatpants and took out his cock. It was so huge compared to mine even soft. I quickly put it away thought because I was scared that he’d wake up.

One time I came home and my stepdad was dead drunk. You could smell the alcohol all around the room. This is when I decided to undo his belt pull his pants all the way down, and suck on his giant cock and rub his huge balls. I jerked off while I sucked and had one of the best orgasms ever.

Ever since then I’ve tried to see his dick in his sleep, but he has woken up a few times with me standing around and now thinks I mess with him in his sleep.

He will no longer fall asleep on the couch and instead makes sure to sleep only when my mother is in the room.

I want to ask him to suck his cock while he is awake, but in reality he’d most likely say no and I’d get shunned by my family. I also wish there was some way to continue to suck his dick while he is sleeping Since I’m too afraid to just ask him.