As child I was abused nightly by my father and his friends my mum turned a blind eye and let my father and his friends fuck me and make me suck their cocks, I eventually got the courage up to report him he was jailed and I grew up hating abusers but now I am hitting my 30s and my father has died my tastes have changed I get really turned on thinking what my father did to me and wish I had enjoyed it more and could go back in time to experience it again I desperately want my fathers cock in me again. Am I strange or has anyone else changed as the grew up to learn to get horny on past experiences