First I did seek help over this

Finding out that you've been raped and molested should have had a bigger impact then I thought it did but it wasn't have all the fanfare you expected, it was about a year ago when I was approached by a young lady and asking if I was *saying my name* and showing me a pic of a diapered 3 year old me she said her daughter was watching an old video on the computer her uncle left them, getting talking she invites me over to watch it and figure out what to do about it

At her house she pulls it up it starts, there's a old naked man (its her great grandfather she noted) then it pans over to show a birthday cake with the door in frame as the camera focuses on the door opening and an old man with a child in a diaper enter you can hear people saying my last name in greeting as the door closed as the camera steps back to get most of the room I was set on the table in front of the naked man the man that sat me down wished him a happy birthday as he undoes my diaper the camera zooms in showing my baby dick as the old man started to suck on it after a minute the guy lifts me up and put the tip of his dick to my butthole hearing careful hes still a virgin as he slowly pushed me down i started to cry after 5 or so minutes I was still crying as he was fucking me hard he cummed in me then I got passed to the next guy as he slid his dick into my gapping ass and fucking me hard as I cry harder he cums then its repeated with 4 others, the last 2 that fucked me I was laying face down on the table sobbing the video pans to show my gapping butthole that's leaking out cum then ends.