Back when i was 10 and my older cousin was 13 we were staying over at our grandparents house one weekend. My cousin who was 3 years older than me and i were hanging out in the basement where the computer was. We would usually watch funny videos on youtube together. My cousin had recently discovered internet porn and asked if id ever seen it. I told him i hadnt so he searched it up and we watched some videos of girls sucking dick and having sex. He told me he liked to jerk off while he watched and i asked him what he meant. He took his pants off and showed me his hard dick. He showed me how he would stroke it and then he asked me to do it for him. I reluctantly grabbed hold of it and started to slowly stroke it like i saw the girls in the videos doing it. He asked if i wanted to suck on it like they were sucking on it. I didnt really want to but i was afraid of letting down my older cousin or making him think i wasnt as cool as the girls on the computer. So i got down between his legs under the desk and put it in my mouth. He had a lot of precum but i just kept swallowing it and licking it. He told me he was going to cum in my mouth and i was going to swallow the stuff that comes out of his dick. He didnt have very much cum so i was able to swallow it all. I was glad i made him happy and thought that would be the end of it. I was wrong. He told me he wanted to lick my pussy like the guys would do in the videos. I really didnt want to but he didnt like when i said no. He pushed me to the floor and took off my pants. I thought if i yelled i might get in trouble so i let him do it. I kind of liked it. He came up to put his tongue into my mouth and i tasted my own vagina. It was really gross and i told him to stop and that i was done playing this game. Before i knew what happened he had plunged his dick into me and covered my mouth to stop me from screaming. I tried to push him off but he was too much bigger than me and so i just cried for a few minutes becuase it really hurt my stomach. Eventually though it started to feel good and then i felt him cum deep inside me. When we were done he spoke quietly into my ear that if i told anyone what we had done then i would be in huge trouble and he would probably go to jail and when he got out he would kill me. I didnt want us to get in trouble so i didnt say anything. I aslo didnt say anything because i ended up having fun after it stopped hurting. I let him fuck me anytime he wanted the rest of the weekend. It was always fun but never as good as the time he forcibly took my virginity. We had sex whenever we stayed over at our grandparents for the next few years and it was fun to have a little secret with him that i was his sex buddy.

When i got to high school as a freshman he was a senior. One weekend his friends were over at his house watching basketball and smoking weed and drinking. I really wanted to have an older boyfriend so i asked him if i could come hangout with them and he said sure. I thought maybe i could flirt with a guy and suck his dick and he would want to be my first high school boyfriend. I went over and started drinking with them and eventually became kind of drunk. My cousin told me he would take me to his bed to lay down for the night. When he got me to the bed he started undressing me and i thought ok he just wants to have sex with me quick thats fine, but as he was undressing me i heard the door creak open more and 2 of his friends shuffled into the room. He told them to do whatever they wanted to me. My cousin held me down as his 2 buddies took turns cumming inside me. One of them left for a minute but soon after 2 more came in and then they each had their turns. After about an hour they all left me alone and it was just my cousin left in the room. I just wanted to roll over and fall asleep but of course he had to take his turn. He started fucking me but i had cum leaking out of my pussy and so he used that as lube to force himself into my ass. It was my anal virginity. I definitley wouldnt say i had fun that night but i look back on it and touch myself to it alot. I just get really turned on remembering how i was used as a drunken cump dump for a group of horny teenagers then anally raped by cousin.