i am currently a 17F

backstory:

when I was 5 I got an iPad my parents trusted me to do the right thing with it. the last thing they knew though was that I was a little perv.

i remember always going onto youtube and searching for women breastfeeding their children, i was borderline obsessed with these videos (my favorite was one where this woman had huge tits and was doing a tutorial on how to breastfeed her twins).

thank god i had the brains to not tell a soul and to always delete my search history. i have been keeping this secret for over 10 years.

only a few years ago i was thinking about it a lot and decided to see if pornhub had any videos about it, and it had made me so horny the thoughts that would run through my mind with literally anyone i see and me wanting to breastfeed them.

then comes in the research of induced lactation i secretly bought some things to help and it sort of did i noticed my boobs getting bigger, but no milk which unfortunately discouraged me to continue.

To this day I think about it daily and want to have sex and just breastfeed someone or literally anywhere anytime, god it makes me so horny and wet thinking about it

when my sister (40 yr) goes to work during school holidays my parents usually look after her 7 and 9 year old(both girls). i usually take them out to the shops to give my parents a break. the 9-year-old can say some really out-of-pocket things sometimes.

she has been saying things to me like am I pregnant, when am i going to have a baby, and if i have breastmilk. i have been like wtf like why is she saying this, I would have never said that at her age, I always think about what I say but not her.

anyway today we were all in the pool and they both were playing a game trying to chase me, but this is when they touched my boob and nipple through my swimmers.

at first, i brushed it off cause we were all swimming and things like that happen but it happened again and i said ow cause the 9 year old sort of pinched it, then i had to address it telling them not to do that cause it hurts and its weird. but both of them laughed and i did to but was trying to be serious so they only took it as a joke and deliberately were trying to do it

later in the pool, the 9 year old swam up to me and sort of sat on my leg and layed her head on my chest at this point i kind of wished she would grind on me and i was trying to move my leg discreetly so she might do it

i gulped looking down at her thinking about me wanting to breastfeed her she then said she wanted to be my kid when she said the heat instantly pooled straight down to my core

after a couple of minutes like this i swam away to act normal for the 7 year old

i then tried talking to her in the pool away from her sister to address this and ask questions about it if she would tell her parents and how it made her feel, she said it makes her feel weird and stuff

seeing her like this was literally like seeing me but if i were to do anything about the breastfeeding thing it was weird

after a bit of talking she said she wanted to try it which instantly made me throb and i could feel my heart rate picking up

i told her that if she wanted to she wasnt to tell a soul and i said i wouldn't tell

we then proceeded to go upstairs but her sister came as well and i said for her to go watch tv in the other room for like 30 mins

by this point i knew what she wanted but also knew it was weird and wrong so i never pushed her but i could see she wanted to

i layed on my bed and she layed on top of me with yet again her head laying on my boobs it was driving me insane i looked down and saw her smiling

i knew she was shy about this cause she was redirecting the situation and moving away from me and trying to distract herself with things in my room but she was smiling and i knew exactly what she was thinking about

after a while of bringing it up a few times, i said if she really wanted to but was scared she could first suck over my shirt

it was so funny seeing her like this and how she kept lookign at my boob

after that i said it might be better if she just actually sucked my nipple, she tried it but didnt know how to properly do it so i said to her its kind of like sucking her thumb

i could see in her body language that she really wanted it to, maybe even more than me so i said do it under the covers to make it easier

and she did it.

i literally had to hold my breath like it wasnt amazing but that was the first time that had ever happened to me.

for the rest of the day i didn't bring it up and left her to do her own thing

i trust her not to tell anyone

i cant stop thinking about it and all i want to say to her is will you suck my boob again

but not for a second i want a full on breastfeeding session with her