I met this guy on-line. He sent me a picture of him in a skirt and blouse. He looked pretty hot, so we made arrangements to meet at his place. As soon as he opened the door I told him to turn around. He did, and I tied his hands behind him. I told him I was going to make him my bitch. I turned him back to me and kissed him while rubbing his cock through his skirt.

I could tell he was starting to get hard already. I made him kneel down and start sucking my cock. He was really good at it, and I told him what a good little bitch he was. However, I had other plans for him. I sat on the couch and had him bend over and lay across my lap. I told him I was going to spank him until he was crying like a little cunt. I pulled his skirt up and pulled his panties down to his ankles. I patted him a few times and ran my hand up and down his ass crack. He thought this was great fun until I started to slap each ass cheek as hard as I could. It took about 20 slaps and he was begging me to stop. I stopped and ran my hand up and down his ass crack again. This time, however, I pushed a finger in his asshole each time my hand reached it. H resumed spanking him. His ass was getting quite red, and each slap seemed to hurt more than the previous one. He was sobbing and begging me to stop. I didn't. I must have spanked him for a good 15 minutes, and his ass was now a bright red. I reached under him and stroked his cock until it was hard, then abruptly shoved two wet fingers into his asshole. It brought a yelp from him. "Don't worry, honey," I said, "We're just getting started. I finger fucked him for a minute or so, then resumed the spanking. He kept crying, "Please stop. I'll do anything you want." I kept spanking, and he was wailing like a baby needing a nipple. I resumed the spanking, and he was squirming, trying to get away from me. It was all I could do to hold him down as I alternated spanking him and finger fucking him. His ass was starting to bruise, so I decided it was time to escalate the process.

I moved him off of my lap and had him kneel on the floor with his chest on the couch. I knelt behind him, and without warning I shoved my hard cock in his ass. He screamed in pain. My cock is about 7" long and very thick. I can hardly get my hand around it, so when I shoved it up his ass it almost split him in two. Since his hands were still bound he was helpless to fight me off. I started to slowly fuck him, then harder and faster until I was able to bury my cock all the way to the balls. I fucked him for about 10 minutes, then started cumming. I have big balls and shoot quite a load, so it was running out his ass as fast as I could pump it in. I kept fucking him after I was done cumming until I grew hard again. He was a broken little slut by this time. I pulled my cock out of his ass and sat back down on the couch. I told him to clean me up, and he crawled between my legs and took my cock back in his mouth. He sucked and licked every bit of cum off of me. He started to pull away, but I grabbed his hair and told him to keep sucking. It took a long time, probably 45 minutes before I was able to cum again. Several times he asked if he could stop, and I reminded him that if he stopped I would spank him until his ass fell off. He sucked me until I came again, and I made him swallow it all. I undid his hands. We rested and I had him serve me a couple of beers and told him I had to piss. I walked him into the bathroom and put him in the tub. I started pissing on his head, giving him a nice shower. He was humiliated. I then sat on the toilet and told him I had to shit. He sat in the tub until I was done, then I stood up and had him wipe my ass. When he had my ass clean we went back in the living room. I sat on the couch and told him to suck me again. I had him alternate between sucking my cock and rimming me, and even tongue fucking me. I was finally able to cum a third time, and told him that whenever I called, he was to be ready for me. I got dressed and walked to the door. I called him a little faggot cunt, and he merely said, "Yes sir." I left, reminding myself that I now had a blowjob waiting whenever I wanted it.

It was a site on the net where I invited and arranged an appointment for a nurse to come over and administer some enemas to me. It was by e-mail, and I never communicated via phone, so the arranged day arrived and I saw the car pull up. out stepped a male about young 30ish age. I was expecting a female, but it was set up, and hey, so I'd get a few cleansings. Fine!

We greeted at the door and briefly talked. Then we went to the bedroom. He instructed me to strip to my underwear (just briefs) and relax, as he had to get some stuff from his car. Returning to the bedroom, he brought in the stand for the enema bag. After filling the bag in the bathroom, he came back and hung it.

He explained he'd examine me first. I had to lay face down on the bed so he could start my vital signs. He pulled my underpants down, parted my cheeks, and I spent the next three or so minutes with a thermometer up my rectum! Hadn't had that done in a while. After my temperature was taken I got the rest, the B.P., pulse, listening to my lungs.

All seemed normal at that point, except that when he had me assume a knee-chest position after having pulled my underpants off, I became very aroused and he noticed. His hand slid under my abdomen and he grabbed my erection, and fondled my testicles. Next he placed his hand across my forehead, remarking my temperature had read normal, but now I felt warm. He said he'd re-check my temperature after the enemas.

In the knee-chest position, still erect, he slowly parted my

buttocks and with a liberally lubricated gloved finger, entered my rectum and felt around. I was totally thrilled as he did this, though held my emotions back.

Getting the finger up my ass was one thing, but the monstrosity of what I learned was a double Bardex nozzle that got inflated in the rectum and at the anal opening, certainly had my attention! My attention became more focused as he spoke to me and instructed me on taking the nozzle as it was fairly large. After pushing it in and gaining a widening, it soon slipped past my anal ring and was buried in my rectum. What a sensation. I moaned with pleasure as it was finally inserted. I heard the click as the clamp was opened on the tubing and the warm soapy solution rushed into my rectum, a half a bag 1250cc's. I had to hold it and was a bit uncomfortable, but as soon as he rubbed my abdomen occasionally touching my penis, I became relaxed but started getting hard again. I was administered three of these enemas, and finally a whole 2500cc cleansing warm water enema.

On returning to the bed after the last trip to the bathroom, he said he would "milk my prostate". I soon found myself at the edge of the bed, knee-chest, and his large finger slowly working in and around my anal opening and with his other hand pressing between my erection and my ball bag, and God was I ever loving it!

It wasn't long before he had two well placed fingers up my rectum, working and widening me! I told him I really needed something "intense" as I put it up my now stimulated, pretty well stretched rectum.

He said he wanted to take my temperature again. Then I lost any and all appreciation for my hetero-sexual being as I told him I wanted it taken with his "meat thermometer"!

I heard his belt unbuckle, his zipper come open and turned to watch him stepping out of his white pants and removing his briefs.

Straddling me as I now assumed a position on my stomach with my legs spread apart, holding my ass cheeks as far apart as I could, I felt the head of his massive penis touch my anal opening, then start to enter me. Slowly he pushed, and with his penis about 10" long, I was getting every inch of it up my ass!

In and out, repeatedly as he pounded my ass and colon, finally after a few minutes, blowing a huge load up my ass, groaning as he did.

After getting it taken via his meat thermometer, he cleaned his cock, and returned, still erect saying an oral measurement would help him diagnose my "fever". Soon his meat thermometer was deep into my mouth, and I sucked it as hard as I could, and finally as he pushed a little further, his manhood started entering my throat, and with a groan of passion, his ejaculate, nice and warm, exploded in my oral cavity, coating my throat and tongue.

After taking my temperature twice more, in my ass and my mouth, he said I needed one more thing if I was OK with it. He told me what he had in mind, and with a raging hard-on, lay across his lap and got one of the most intense ass reddening and blistering spankings I'd ever had! Not only did I get his hand, but he used my wide leather belt as well. I lay exhausted and my ass "burning up".

By that time, I didn't care and told him I wanted his cock up my ass again. He mounted me and shoved that monstrosity between his legs deep into my ass hole again, fucking me till I came all over the bed.

We had a few more "visits", and my temperature got taken quite a number of times and he knew how to give his fever diagnosing ministrations.

What I'm about to write is true but I am much to ashamed to tell anyone especially my co workers, friends or family. Where I live and work are 35 miles apart and I am a plant supervisor very well liked and respected by all. I am assertive yet fair with the 42 people under my supervision. Thankfully they no nothing of my home life and present relationship where I am a totally submissive idiot. I knew Jill was bisexual even before I had her move in with me three years ago. I also knew she was involved with several other girls and had weekly sex while I was at work. I never encouraged or discouraged her simply because of the overwhelming sex I had with her. I have had a few good relationships in the past but Jill was the most sexual and dominant girl I had ever been with. She satisfied me in ways I never thought about and introduced me to sex toys which we used on each other several times a week. Within the first year of her living with me she had turned me into a submissive fool and I loved every minute of it. She was the first woman I ever allowed to penitrate my rectum. It started with a thin vibrator and quickly escalated to where she would use an assortment of attachments and dildos in many different shapes and sizes. She usually did this while jerking me off or giving me oral sex. I not only let her shave me but she has also given me spankings and that first year and insisted on giving me enemas three times. At work I am in control but at home Jill is and I have become like a puppet. She is only six years older than me but often treats me like I am a juvenile, ordering me to submit to her sexual fantasies and I always comply. Some were humiliating at first but now I am a completely submissive shadow of a man. Her bisexual activities continued and little by little I found out who the two other woman are, Sally and Brittany. I knew Sally for some time, knew she was married and had two kids but never met them or her husband. Brittany I had heard of but didn't ever meet her at the time. Then just under two years ago Jill began asking if I would be open to a threesome and told me I could also see how she has sex with the other girls. I had never had a threesome but like any other guy have thought about it. I agreed but never expected to get myself so involved in having myself dominated by three women. The first time we did this was with Sally and aside from me seeing her and Jill satisfy each other the two of them took liberties with me that I never complained about. Jill started it by having Sally give me oral sex and before I knew what was happening Jill was invading my rectum with the vibrator and a large penis shape dildo. Then Sally took over and the way I was positioned didn't relize at first that she was fucking me with a strap on dildo. As humiliating as it was I never said a word, manily because I was so aroused by the blow job Jill was giving me. I had never been with two girls at the same time before. At one point Sally was on her knees and I was having anal intercouse with her while at the same time giving Jill oral sex as she stood in front of me. By the end of that week Brittany came over and that is when I first realized how aggressive and domanating they were, even more so than Jill. Don't get me wrong because I am very willing to sacrifice my manhood for the amount of pleasure I receive from these girls. Even though they do things that embarrass me I just go along with it. Since this began with Sally and Brittany I now have no control of what goes on. Jill has even became more aggressive with me even when we are alone and I just put up with it. There have been many times when both Sally and Brittany are here on the same night. I can't began to explain how humiliating it can be but they always know when I am to aroused to complain of anything. Sometimes Jill will begin jerking me off or sucking me and at the same time Sally and Brittany will also play with my gentals and anus. I get so turned on either Sally or Brittany or both will position me in such a way to be able to fuck me with the strap on. Brittany is very rough sometimes and even though it is a little painful I never complain about it. I think they enjoy degrading me and try to purposely humiliate me but when I talk to Jill about it she denies that is the reason. They all spank and shave me and a few times I have had small cuts on my scrotum which they also shave. Sally insists on shaving the hair in my crack and I can't believe sometimes how I let them position me in the most mortifying positions to do all this. There have been times when my anus is sore for a few days yet I never deny them access to my rectum or anything else. Jill has no jealousey about anything they do. Most of the the time its just one of them here but over the past year both have come more frequently. The one thing that is still humiliating is when I get an enema which is maybe every three weeks. Its only a warm water enema but Jill seems to want it done when she and the other two are here. Its not arousing at all to me and is very embarrassing. They do it after all the sex is done and I can no longer get an erection or ejaculate. My penis isn't very big when limp and I am sure the enemas are done mainly to humiliate me even though Jill tells me its not. I think Sally and Brittany get some type of satisfaction out of degrading me and believe Jill purposely lets them insert the nozzle in me likeing to watch them do it. I put up with this only because I get to have anal sex and intercouse with them. I know they will always give me oral sex and have me aroused to a full extent. I never told Jill this but Brittany is the best blow job I have ever had. She is able to consume my entire penis in her mouth and let me ejaculate knowing she swallows most of it. There were times when she forced me to taste my own semen which Sally and Jill thinks funny but I don't like. Sally and Brittany are alike in some ways but Sally seems like the one who likes to spank me the most and Jill lets her use my belt most of the time. I do like watching them have sex with each other even using the strap on and fucking one another. When its just Jill and I and only one of the other girls we usually shower together when done with the sex. We wash each other and how could I not enjoy that. I feel like an asshole sometimes because in work I have to be in control of everything. If those people knew how I am dominated and desgraced at home they would have no respect for me. In work what I say goes, at home I am only obedient and submissive. Often when I'm alone and thinking about the things I let Jill and the other girls do I get embarrassed of myself. I see no end to it and basically don't want it to stop. More and more they make up reasons to spank me, telling me I need to be punished for one thing or another. As much as I am satisfied by them I sometimes feel like they are using me for their own sexual perversion. Especially when they fuck me with the strap on or give me an enema. I know Sally and Brittany have no respect of me and when I think about it realize I let them and Jill do anything they desire. I never tell them anthing is embarrassing for me but I'm sure they are well aware of when I am humiliated by them. I'm sure that is part of it and something they enjoy doing. I never thought much about that in the past but believe that a lot woman are obsessed with dominating a man. Most women are aware of the sexual power they have over men and how easy it is if the want sex with a man. Jill, Sally and Brittany, I believe, don't really need sex with me but have discovered what an easy mark I am and take advantage of it. While they are here I don't care whats going on because they have a knack of keeping me aroused most of the time. Brittany has even supplied me with viagra many times and I know behind my back they make a fool of me and think of me as a stupid man. Jill and I get along great and have great sex together. I often question why she ever got Sally and Brittany involved with us and her main response is that she is bisexual and enjoys having sex with the girls and me at the same time. I have told Jill that some of the things are humiliating but she tells me I have to give them some enjoyment in the things they like to do. I also think Jill has sex with them more often than she admits to me and wonder if she likes sex with them better than she does with me. I beleive all three of them have a domination fetish and most obvious in Brittany. I'm a winner and a loser, a winner because of the sex I get but a loser because of the disrespect I receive. They may not think I know it but just the ways they force me to display my genitals and how they abuse my anus and rectum is downright degrading. They have come to know me like a book and by now know they can do anything they please. As soon as we are naked I am aroused and they know it. At first thought I felt I was taking advantage of Jills friends but things swiftly changed in the other direction. It all has to do with me since I am the one who gave up and let them take charge of me. I could put an end to it but am so turned on and sexually satisfied by them that I continue to allow the abuses they inflict, some of which are also stimulating. I don't mind being penitrated with a dildo or vibrator but having them fuck me with the strap while the others watch is demoralizing. I know their intent with the enamas is strickly to embarrass me yet Jill still says its only for fun. Well, since the last enema I got from Jill alone, both girls have been her for every other one except for one time. This month so far Sally has been here once, Brittany once, and the two of them three times. This past Tuesday they both fucked me with the dildo and Brittany gave me an enema. It seems fun is when they are all here. Like I said before I could stop it but I don't. I am like a slave to them and obey and put up with whatever they decide for my own sexual satisfaction. I guess its a love hate situation since most of it is arousing and I am well taken care of sexually. Jill and I still have sex alone a few times a week. It consists mostly of intercourse and oral sex but we occassionally use the sex toys on each other. The sex toy briefcase is the first thing out when Sally, Brittany or both are here. I feel like they think of me as amusement lately because over the last few months they have been penitrating me more than I do them. They never ask what I want to do and I just let them have control of me. Just to be satisfied I let them do all this.

This is something few people know about even though I live in a very small town in up state NY. I'm a 42 year old female who has been terrorizing and demoralizing a young guy since he dropped out of high school. His name is Byron, his mother is white and the town drunk. His father is black and no one has seen him in more than ten years. I never liked Byron and always dispised his mother and father. Byron will be 20 next October but I have succeeded in having full control and obedience from him. He is so afraid of me I have complete domination of him and have totally broken him down. He was a little skinny, foul mouth punk and yet when his mother threw him out of her house I let him move in with me and my friend Connie. He had no job and quit school a few weeks before that. I set a list of rules for him and started by having him do yard work and painting. He knew I didn't like him and he knew my reputation as being a tough and arrogant woman. This I have to explain since my up bringing wasn't good. I was molested and abused as a small girl and had relationships with some men I don't care to think about. I'm a big woman and always felt used by the men I had relationships with. I don't think of myself as a lesbian but as a bisexual. Connie and I have been lovers for 6 years and she moved in with me 5 years ago. When Byron moved in both Connie and I read him the riot act and I informed him he would do as he is told and if not he would be punished. I belittled him and ridiculed him, telling him he was a shrimp and that I considered him trash. I informed him I was nothing like his parents and that I was big enough to spank him if he got out of line. That first day I even smacked his face just to show him who was the boss. It took less than a month the first time I actually did spank him and he wimpered like a small child. What caught my attention most was when I made him take off his underware in front of Connie. Tears rolled down his face even before I began spanking him. He is light skinned even though his father was black and has a small penis. I could see the humiliation in his eyes and rather than feel sorry for him it gave me a sense of power and domination which I have never had over a male before. I shamefully admit that I enjoy the aspect of humiliating males. I started taking more advantage of Byron more frequently as time passed and Connie also enjoys humiliating him as often as possible. After the first spanking it occurred to me that Byron was actually shy. He was so embarrassed that Connie and I saw his penis and that I made him lay half naked over my lap he wanted to cry. The second time I made him take all of his clothes off and and let Connie spank him naked. Afterwards I made him stay naked for hours dustiung furniture and mopping the kitchen floor that way. He had a frown on his face and tears in his eyes the entire time. From then on he is naked for every spanking he gets. Its probably over a year now that at least once a week I make him do chores around the house completely naked. He calls us Miss Nel and Miss Connie all the time and when I tell him to get his clothes off he always says "please no". Either me or Connie spank him every week and sonmetimes more than that. The fact that we make him go around naked bothers him more than the spankings and thats why I do it. There are certain friends of mine and Connie who we often let them see Byron naked. Julie and Dawn seemed to like it the most. I have them over more often than some other friends and will call Byron into the living room and make him strip down in front of all four of us. He has cried a few times but still obeys me when I tell himm to undress. What makes it worse for him is when he is naked I make him wax the furniture and vacuum the carpet while the other girls are watching him. He has become like a puppet and does whatever Connie or I tell him to do. Its also been over a year since we began making him masturbate in front of us. It started when one night Connie walked into his room and caught him jerking off. At least one night a week we make him strip and masturbate in the living room. Once he is naked we make him put newspaper on the floor and more often than not have one or more of our friends over to watch also. Connie tells him it punishment for his dirty mind. I don't think his erection is any more than about 5 inches at the most and know he is completely humiliated when we make him do this. As he strokes himself he also has tears in his eyes and never looks at any of us. Connie is the one who makes him move around and always makes him turn and bend over. She makes him speard his cheeks apart when doing this forcing him to expose his anus and a back view of his scrotum and penis. She does this just to embarrass him more and I can't imagine what he is thinking when Connie makes him do that. He knows he has to cum on the newspapers and afterwards has to roll them up and put them in the trash. To make matters more degrading we make him thank us for watching him and telling us what a bad boy he is. Dawn enjoys mocking him also whereas most of the other girls don't say much to him. Dawn likes asking him embarrassing questions often telling him how small his penis is and asking how often he masturbates and if he has a girlfriend, which he does not. He is still a shrimp but no longer a foul mouth brat and is truly afraid of Connie and I.

I read stories and see things on tv about people being abused. Sometimes child abuse, spouse abuse or just a teacher or adult abusing a kid. Scandals about religious figures abusing people in their churches or other stories of pedophiles. My situation is more of letting myself be abused out of fear and a long drawn out manipulation by a two women who are not even blood relatives. My mother died of a drug overdose when I was 5 and somehow Helen and Brenda became my legal guardians with the approval of my grandmother. We live in a semi-rural area and are only 4 miles from town where I went to school. Helen and Brenda are not related to each other but own a small business together. Many people think they are gay but both have dated men many times over the years. The abuse of me began without me ever realizing it. I was born with a clubbed foot but am able to walk without any assistance. I'll be 20 next April and although I know how they take advantage of me it has become a sexual turn on for me. They have known this for a long time and continue to use me and treat me like a servant. As far back as I can remember is when they began spanking me but it was Brenda who always forced me to undress first. I was never permitted to lock either my bedroom or the bathroom door and many times during a week was denied being able to wear clothes. I saw them naked often but forced to be naked around them for hours and many times for a full day always saying it was punishment. It seemed like everytime one of them spanked me they also would make me stay naked the rest of the day or evening. I was naked so often as a youngster in front of them I don't remember if I was ever embarrassed by it since I was so young when it started. Some of the beatings I received were cruel and Brenda was the one who always made me plead for forgiveness. Helen was the one to make up my chore list and when she spanked me often smacked or took hold of my penis or squeezed my scrotum just to inflick more pain. I was petrified of both of them and to a degree still am today. As I reached puberty nothing changed, the whippings continued and my genitals were abused by them. They use their hands but also use one of Helen's skinny, red leather belts. I was always in to much pain to react sexually with the things they did to me. I was 13 the first time they saw me with an erection. I don't know what I did but Brenda made me undress and bend over to spank me. By this time I didn't cry very often unless they beat me badly. She smacked my penis a few times with the belt and all the sudden I was hard. I was standing naked in front of them which didn't embarrass me at all but the fact that I did have a hard on was humiliating for me, why I don't know. Helen and Brenda first critized me, then Helen asked me if I masturbated. I said no at first but after what became an interiagation, I admitted that I did. That day was the first time they made me masturbate in front of them. I still saw them naked once in awhile but they never were when I was and never when they beat me or made me jerk off. Helen is built well compared to Brenda, who is very tall and heavy. Both are in their late 40's now and Helen will be 50 in November. They began giving me an option of either getting a spanking or going without clothes for that day or for a few hours. It was always because of something I did which is most of the time made up by them or something as stupid as not doing the dishes the right way. Even though they both date men I know they have sex together, most of the time in Helens room when I can hear them. Since my early teen years they continued now to spank me and force me to masturbate afterwards. By the time I was 16 is when they began doing things to humiliate me at first making me shave off pubic hair. After only a few times Brenda began doing it and it was impossible for me not to get an erection. Every time I get an erection and everytime they make me masturbate and sometimes spank me afterwards for doing it. I have never told anyone about this and for the last 4 or 5 years have began to enjoy it. Helen and Brenda have had me admit to it many times and I now welcome the abuse they inflick on me. Two or three times a week I am ordered to get undressed and I willingly comply. They never tell me so but I know they like seeing me naked. I'm 5'6' and built fairly well but my penis is only a normal size. I know they like spanking me and even though sometimes they over do it I never complain about it fearing they will hurt me worse. Brenda still makes me plead leniency and forgiveness but still sometimes hits me so hard I still cry from the pain, but not as often as when I was younger. A year or so ago was the first time they abuse my rectum when Helen was shaving me. She always shaves my pubic hair completely, even shaving the hair around and near my anus. Although she and Brenda had often touched my anus, Helen forced a dildo in me which I didn't and don't like, but still put up with her doing that to me. I have never had sex with a girl and don't have to many friends I can even confide in. Helen and Brenda do touch my penis and testicals all the time when they spank or shave me, but they never masturbate me. They always make me jerk off myself, sometimes making me lay down or bend over as I do just to try and humiliate me. This I don't mind them doing and am no longer intimadated by anything they do or make me do. They often come in the bathroom as I shower and for some strange reason like to watch me pee. Years ago it bothered me when they watched but no longer does it now. The main fear I have of them now is how hard they will spank me, especially with the red belt. They don't treat me much better than they did many years ago and still order me around like a little kid. They are abusing and taking advantage of me but it became arousing to me a long time ago. They don't go out of their way to have me see them naked but neither one of them ever tries to cover up. Brenda will go through the hall naked and sometimes her door will be open when I see her. Helen has her bedroom door open a lot and I do see her naked more often and sometimes she talks to me when she is naked in the hallway. When ever they make me undress to spank me or make me go around naked they are always dressed or at least in night clothes. As much as it has turned into a sexual thing for me I'm not sure what kind of amusement or satisfaction they get from doing all these things to me. I know they have no desire to have sex with me but obviously like seeing me naked and punishing me. Even though they touch my genitals they have never masturbated me which I would like for them to do. I think they are under the impression that I am embarrassed or humiliated with the way they treat me and I think they are convinced I am sometimes. The only things I still dislike is when one of them spanks me to hard and I never like it when they insert the dildo in my rectum. Helen likes doing that to me more so than Brenda and I'm sure by now she does it knowing full well how I hate it. It don't really hurt that much but I just don't like how it feels, especially when she keeps pulling it in and out of me. She keeps asking me how it feels and telling me I don't like it and knows I don't. Helen dates a guy on a regular basis but I know for sure that she and Brenda have sex a couple times a week. I only work at their store two or three days a week but I clean the whole house and do all the laundry every week. They are good to me if I need money or clothes but many times they tell me I am not allowed out. Six months ago I wanted to go to a movie one night and Brenda said I had to stay home. I went anyway and when I got home the two of them made me strip naked and beat me with the red belt until I was in tears. I'm 19 but they still control me and now I always ask if I can go out. I think about it and know how they dictate almost everything I do but so far just go along with everything. I know I must sound like a complete idiot but I don't have anywhere to go and no job experience. I don't know what I want to do or want to be someday and just let Helen and Brenda continue to dominate my life. I have two friends I see often and both have met Helen and Brenda a few times. They think Helen is my mother and I just let them believe that. My friends know I'm not allowed out sometimes but have no knowlege of what goes on or how Helen and Brenda treat me. I could never tell them everything and now make up excuses instead of admitting I am not allowed out.