Daddy molested me a few times growing up, but I just pretended it never happened. It when on from 2 years old to 17 years old. I'm 34 now, and I have been fantasizing about him for a few years now. I went to see him last week. His wife is Always around, but this time we went just the 2 of us for a drive. He took me to a state park near by. We drove for a while, there were no other cars around. He stopped and said there were things he needed. He lunged at me, kissing me on my mouth. Even though I fantasize about him, I don't want to live out that fantasy. I was pushing and telling him to stop. He said he may not get another chance and he was taking this one. He overpowered me. As he was stroking my breats he was talking so weird. "That's a gooood girl. You're daddy's special girl. Now no more fighting. Let's get in the back and play our little game we used to play when you were little.

It felt pointless to fight him. I went into the back seat. "Undress for me hun" he demanded. I did. "That's nice. Daddy has missed your breasts and your private part."

He took one of my ample breasts in his mouth and was just tonguing my nipple and moaning. I sat very still. I remembered this. Not as a game. I just remember how he did it the same every time, and he called it our game. He took his dick out. "Now you know what to do."

I just put my hand around his cock and began jacking him off

He wiggled and groaned and moaned. Then he reached over and started fingering me. Hard.

"Ok suck it" he commanded. So I did. His limp dick started springing to life.

"That's enough. I don't want to come yet" he said. I stopped. He looked around. There was no one but us. He got out of the truck, came over to my side, and opened my door. He positioned me sitting w the legs out the door so he could lick me. He makes the strangest pleasure sounds when he does it. It makes me cringe. As he licked my clit he furiously played with one of my boobs. I was trying to just not think, but to my horror, my body began to respond.

"Oooo is daddy's little girl getting wet?" He asked kinda muffled with his mouth on my crotch. I tried to think of anything else, to will myself to be disgusted. Nothing worked. My body was getting so worked up. Then he moved up and started sucking on my nipples. Both at the same time. I almost had an orgasm. A few moments later he slid back between my legs and put his tongue inside of me. Then he licked all the way out. I came so hard. It was the best oral sex I have ever had. After he slurped up all my cum, he stood up and said, "Now it's daddy's turn" in a real low voice. He pulled me out, turned me around, bent me over, and shoved his 10 inch cock inside my pussy. He got winded quick.

"Honey, you're going to have to do the work. I'm out of breath. "

I told him to sit in the backseat. I straddled him and began rolling my hips. I put my tits in his face to get him sucking again. As soon as he went to work on my nipples, another orgasm began to build. I could not believe it. He was trying to hold back. He'd slow me down or have me stop. Finally I stopped listening and started moving my hips and my body as sensually as I could.

All of a sudden daddy closed his eyes tight and looked like he was in pain.

"I'm cumming honey. I'm coming"

I felt his cock pulsating as it shot inside of me. I got off him, got dressed, and sat back in the front seat like nothing had happened.

I came home early. The next day, to be exact. I am disgusted with my father and never want to see him again, but I am not able to cum unless I fantasize about the incident. And I cum sooooo hard when I do. What should I do?

Oh and I am not on birth control.