So im not sure tbh but I think im bi. But dont think id ever date a guy tho, im just into the sexual appeal. First time I was ever turned on by a guy was my dad…(a whole other level of shame when you are confused i feel) He was dating a pretty attractive woman at the time and i know based on the unusual amount of sexual comments my dad made all the time, i had assumed they were prettt sexually active. So one night, after everybody went to sleep, i was mad horny and had the idea to get my dads phone off the charger, (and this was when i was around 12, i think it was 2012 or 2013 when it was oddly common for people to not put passwords on their phones or ipods) started snooping. Sure enough there was tons of dirty shit to go thru. I scrolled way up and started at my (ex step mom)s dirty talking. Cant remember everything she said but i remember it being very detailed. But what really got me what my dads response. He said he was in his truck and at a red light and she had caught him off guard. But he also said “that was so hot. Second i saw that, made my cock twitch. Im so hard”. Shit fucked me up. I took a picture of that part of the convo with my phone. Not too long after my dad decided to pull over and send her a dick pic. Instantly came. I felt bad after wards. But i couldnt stop thinking about that picture. I had to prevent myself from saving it because i felt it was wrong. But i went back to it and jacked off to the same photo and more conversations plenty times after that. Ever since i have had sexual thoughts about him. Not when i see him in person, but only when im jacking off and super horny. Iv downloaded texting apps trying to get him to send me a dick pic but he still hasnt. Hopefully some day…