I started watching porn when I was 4. My father had some on 8mm film he probably got underground in Germany somewhere off base. It was all pretty graphic that at 51 yrs old now I can still remember vividly. But nonetheless it's given me an obsession to suck cock. Some days it's all I can think about and control. I can suck my own cock an inch or so but that just frustrated me. I did it to my younger cousin a few times when I was 11 or 12 and I think he was 8 or 9, but that came after an older boy named Arthur had sucked me off a few times before i did it to him.

I'm not gay. Gay in the sense of attraction to men, anyway. I love women and hell they bring into my life. I've only sucked two cocks as an adult and those were in glory holes. I was so nervous I came too fast and didn't enjoy it as much as I wanted. I've never felt a dick cum in my mouth and I need to. I love eating mine but the thought of someone else's is amazing.